from Jesse’s Café Américain:
“To escape the pain caused by regret for the past or fear about the future, this is the rule to follow: leave the past to the infinite mercy of God, the future to His good Providence, and give the present wholly to His love by being faithful to His grace.”
Jean-Pierre de Caussade, Abandonment to Divine Providence
"Man has places in his heart which do not yet exist, and into them enters suffering, in order that they may have life."
And when we fail through weakness, we are readily forgiven if we are but genuinely repentant for our misdeeds, by action or omission.
But all too often we bargain away our souls, one piece at a time, rebelling from even these small and reasonable requests to goodness— and for relatively so little in return. A little more money, some prestige and recognition from the worldly, and a feeling of being superior to the rest of humanity. They are fools, but I am smart, and fully deserve everything that we have been given, owing nothing to anyone, including God.
And we may hold on to that poisonous bargain out of stiff-necked, stubborn pride and a willful blindness to repent and admit our errors, until we fall into the abyss, often bringing our family and friends with us. Misery loves company, and the sinful insulate themselves from a recognition of the foulness of their hearts by attempting to convert those around them to the same wickedness.
You will serve what you love the most, and sacrifice for the love of what you serve. Whether it be God, a political ideology, yourself, or some other idol of the world. No one can serve two masters equally.